Goodbye.

It is now time for me to say my final goodbye. I had the most wonderful experience of my life but now it is over. My beautiful girlfriend has now moved on from me and onto greener pastures. I do not blame her for this. Looking at what she could have instead of me, it is not hard to see why.

I just want to apologise for everything I did wrong by you over the past year and 9 months. For swearing at you, not giving you all the time I could, from arguing and fighting with you and for the tension there was between us in our final days. If I could go back and change it all, I would. I wish life had a rewind button sometimes.

You were the most beautiful, brilliant and gorgeous girl I ever came across, and at the time I was more than lucky to be able to call you mine. All things considered, I will always be proud of how long I kept you around, and how happy we were able to be together. I will never forget our trip to London, Bristol, our various trips to Southampton, and also the lazy days we spent milling around each other’s rooms almost every day after school. From the hours we spent in various fast food chains, to the times we even dressed up and went somewhere fancy, every event with you was interesting and special in its own way. The only thing I ever ask for is that your next boy can give you all of this and very much more. From the looks of things, he certainly can, seeing as I appear to have been replaced already, before I had a time to get to grips and set out a plan to make us work. I wish I’d have had the time.

Thank you for the experience you have given me moving forward. You were the most loving and compassionate girl I could have ever asked for. You were there for me through MS, my Dad’s violence, our poor exam results in year 1 and our great exam results in year 2. I’m sorry that I was so fucking awful at showing you how much I appreciated your existence, and now it is certainly too late, but I wanted you to know nonetheless.

Anyway, I doubt you’ll ever read this and to be honest, things would be easier if you didn’t. I love you so much but now it’s time for me to go. 

You will always be beautiful.

Goodbye Snipps.

Dear Bubba

I love you more than anything. This has been the best year of my life and nothing will ever change that. You have treated me better than I ever thought possible and you have made me the happiest boy on the planet, and I’m eternally grateful to you for that.

Whether it’s playing video games with me, going into my shops, or buying me food, you’ve always tried your best to make me happy and comfortable, and your best has always been enough for me. I’ve spent the last year as happy as I could be and I don’t believe anyone could have made me happier than you have. I am so blessed to have you in my life and I promised I would never take you for granted.

We have had so many hilarious times together I have lost count. Watching the old lady and her ‘car’ and her somewhat disobedient passenger dog has to be a personal highlight of mine, but cuddles and jokes have been aplenty in our time together and I hope that continues into the future.

Even when we argue and fight I will always love you and I will always be faithful because I know love always prevails over anything else. Even if I’m not the best boyfriend in the world I know I can try to be the best I can be and that is the most I can do.

For you I will always try my best even if you don’t always believe I am. I’m always trying my best but sometimes I find it difficult and sometimes I do really badly. I’m sorry for that.

I love you more than anything and I know sometimes you don’t love me and I’m sorry for that. You are my perfect, gorgeous darling and you mean the world to me. Thank you for always being there for me and thank you for making me feel special, loved and cared for. You have been everything a boy could ask for and more.